Binge Player Syndrome and How It’s
Hard to Go Back (Or Stop)
Perspective
Abstract: I suffer from the self-coined “Binge
Player Syndrome” (BPS). I feel the urge to ‘complete’ new games, learn their
language, and do so as swiftly as possible. BPS affords some benefits, like the
uncanny ability to see games to their end point and the psychological
reassurance of getting tasks accomplished. The downside, however, is that BPS
makes it exceedingly hard to return to games left unfinished while
simultaneously making it difficult to stop playing until I’ve attained ‘mastery.’
What kind of gamer are you?
Hello
everyone. I have a confession to make. I suffer from “Binge Player Syndrome”
(BPS). I’m not quite sure how long I’ve been affected by BPS, but it’s
certainly taken a stronger hold of me since entering graduate school. But what
is BPS? Am I sure I didn’t just invent the term? (I totally did.) How does it
affect me on a day-to-day basis and as a gamer? Fear not, you won’t be in the
dark much longer. Let me explain.
I’ve been
affected by BPS for as long as I can remember playing games, but it’s certainly
intensified over the past six years or so. Let me describe a few of the
symptoms. It starts with an initial hesitation to begin playing a new game.
This stems from a fear, or maybe not fear exactly, but a dread for what looms
in my immediate future. I know that once I start a game, I’ve invested a part
of myself into it. I am there to fully consume the game. I have made a
commitment. The commitment can be a bit fluid, but what it ultimately comes
down to is this: I will not stop playing the game until I feel like I have ‘completed’
it. Completion can mean different things for different games, but when I
dedifferentiate the specifics into a general list, I get these:
· Finish the single player mode, if
the game has one.
· Gain a near mastery* of the gameplay
systems
· Understand what the game does well
and where it fails
· At minimum, spend adequate** time in
all features / modes offered
· [For recent games] Complete an
acceptable*** level of in-game achievements (trophies, Steam achievements, etc)
· Above all, play enough to form an
educated opinion
*Able to
perform all tasks asked of me by the game with decent-to-excellent execution
**This can
range dramatically, usually dependent on how essential I feel the mode is to
the game’s sum experience.
***This
point is moot for games without in-game achievements, like those on Nintendo
platforms or mobile. I’ll generally look at a list, see which seem fun and/or
easy to accomplish, and plan to get those ones done.
The other
critical element of my BPS is, as you might have guessed, achieving this
‘completion’ in as fast a time as possible. The ‘why’ to my rapid timetable is
multifaceted. Without going into too much detail, it exists as a combination of
my desire to have the time to experience as many interesting games as possible,
to stay on top of the constant deluge of new releases, and to not remain
stagnant in how I spend my limited free time. When I start up a new game I go
all in and all at once. I tend to binge a new game start to finish,
uninterrupted by other games if at all possible (though I have been known to
juggle as many as three titles at the same time). It’s like a good burger or
plate of sushi. As much as I may try to draw out my excellent experience as
long as possible, it’s usually a quite short affair. I consume. Fast.
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| One month into 2016 and I already have a meaty list of played games. |
Further, by
looking so far into the future of my time with new games, often before I even
truly start, I can get caught up in the work I have ahead of me. I’ll therefore
approach it like all other work I do: by buckling down and doing research. First
and foremost, I need to learn the language
of the game. I need to understand what the game is trying to communicate to
me and the way in which it is doing so. The process is often fast as I try to
approach the problem from multiple angles: experimenting with the game’s
systems, scouring the in-game resources, and seeking online write-ups or guides
to serve as a foundation for my endeavors. I’m gathering evidence, making
observations, and (as I play) synthesizing them to not only gain mastery
but also form various theses on my experience. For every new game I attempt to
transform myself into the player the game wants me to be. In my experience, this
gives the game its best chance to show off its strengths. By the end of my time
with a game, I want to be able to speak its language.
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| I just started PAD. There's so much language to learn. |
So what
does BPS do for me? What is it good for? Above all, it makes me pretty adept at
finishing games. One of the most shocking gaming statistics I’ve come across in
the past few years is how few people finish the games they start. It is
remarkable and, if I’m being honest, a bit sad. Prior to this last generation
of consoles, it was hard to quantitate completion percentages. You could survey
people, but those can easily be impacted by confounders (who wants to admit
they haven’t beaten The Legend of Zelda:
Ocarina of Time, for example). Here is where the power of trophies / achievements
come in. Most games grant an achievement for completing the single player
content. For PlayStation at least, you can then look at the total percent of
players that have earned the trophy for completion (measured out of the total
number of individuals who have booted up the game). They are all so low. Here
are just a few examples from PlayStation trophies. Only 17% of people have
beaten Titan Souls. Only 22% of
people have beaten Ni No Kuni. Only
10% of people have beaten Transistor.
Even an easy, linear, 6.5 hour game like The
Order: 1886 has only 43% of players reach the end. And the list goes on. By
finishing a game, I place myself in a minority of individuals who have actually
seen the experience to its conclusion.
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Transistor is amazing people! I know more
than 10% of you can beat it. |
BPS is also
quite good at making me feel accomplished (as superficial as it might be). I
set out in the beginning of my time with a new game with a huge to-do list
filled with unchecked boxes. Playing the game lets me check box after box. The
credit roll lets me know that I’ve done something, that I’ve put in the work to
see the game all the way through. There’s something psychologically reassuring
about checking things off a list, about making gradual linear progress towards
a fixed endpoint. This feeling isn’t why I play games, but it certainly
enhances my time with them.
There isn’t
all upside to my syndrome, of course. With good comes bad. And the worst is how
BPS affects my ability to go back to old titles. Once a game has slipped out of
the bubble of fervor, it is usually lost forever. Life can intervene, a new
title I’ve eagerly awaited can be released before I finish, I can get bored,
etc. There’s no end to the factors that can take me out of the experience. As I
keep moving forward, distance rapidly grows between myself and the game I’ve
been meaning to complete. And coming back is rough. It’s like being dropped in
a foreign country, unclear of where to go, how to go, and how to communicate
with the locals. I suspect this is a feeling shared by anyone trying to get
back into a game they’ve put down for a while, but my exasperation
feels so much more intense because I’m keenly aware of what I lost. I used to
know the language. I used to know my way around. Further, my BPS mandates a
certain level of mastery for my enjoyment. It feels awful hopping back into a
game, deep into it’s content, totally unaware of what to do. So much so I’d
rather just leave it be. It’s hard to go back.
Though I
have left many games unfinished, a few stick out in my mind as particularly
painful. One that still haunts me is Baten
Kaitos on Gamecube. I loved that game. The immersive world, the card-based
battle system, the cast of characters, the stunning visuals. I couldn’t tear
myself away from the game. Until, for some reason , I just
stopped playing. At the final dungeon.
Yep. By the time my guilt for leaving Baten
Kaitos incomplete finally reached its boiling point, I had totally
forgotten what I was doing and how to play, stranded in story’s toughest area. I
attempted on a several occasions to pick it back up to finish, but I never got
my foothold. Baten Kaitos remains
unfinished.
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| One day I'll finish you Baten Kaitos. Probably. Maybe. The chances are slim. |
A more
recent pair of examples are From Software’s Dark
Souls II and Bloodborne. Now
don’t get me wrong, I’ve finished both games. I’ve also completed all in-game
trophies, earning myself the platinum. What I refer to here is their respective
DLCs. As much as I love both games, I consumed them like I consume all games:
all at once and as completely as possible. I specced my ideal characters, beat
all bosses optional or not, maxed out my upgrades, etc. But for both games, I
was done within three weeks. Thus, when the DLC for each of the two games
was released upwards of 6+ months later, I had lost my mastery of the Souls language. The DLC’s barrier to
entry was extraordinarily high, because it meant relearning what I had binged
so long ago. Again, while I’m sure I would pick it back up again, the feeling
of having to do so is unpleasant (for me). Once I’ve crossed a game off my list,
it generally stays crossed. Bloodborne’s
The Old Hunters DLC was a huge
inspiration for this piece. I own it and I’m so excited to play, but my BPS is
putting up a huge wall blocking my re-entry.
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Even though I am incredibly excited to play The Older Hunters DLC,
I haven't been able to get past my mental barrier to re-entry. |
A final
game I had originally slated to write about here was Ni No Kuni. I recently said on TIF podcast that Ni No Kuni is easily the best classic
JRPG from the PS3/Xbox360 console generation. It’s a game I bought at launch in
February 2013, and played for 54 hours in 2.5 weeks. It’s also a game that, until
earlier this month, I had not beaten. For one reason or another, I stopped
playing just before the final dungeon. Despite how much I loved the game, and desperately
wanted to finish it, I couldn’t get back into it. I expected to write in this
article how shameful I feel that it still sits incomplete in my gargantuan
backlog. But no. Three years later I’ve beaten it. And it’s all thanks to my fiancée. Justine
began playing the game in the New Year and in the process of doing so retaught
me the language of the game. She helped reteach me the ins-and-outs of Familiar
training and battles. She refamiliarized me with character motivations and the
world’s story. Justine got me to the place where I felt comfortable jumping
back in, which allowed me to get past the limitations of BPS and finally see
the credits roll.
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| Stuck in Ding Dong Dell no longer! It felt sublime to finish Ni No Kuni. |
Hand-in-hand
with difficulty going back to an old game, it’s also incredibly hard to stop
playing the titles I’m currently working on. I played Bloodborne non-stop for nearly three weeks. From early morning to
the late hours of the night, I didn’t feel satisfied until I had ‘completed’
the game. In Bloodborne’s case, that
meant beating the story, all dungeons, all bosses, and obtaining the platinum
trophy. The list of things I wanted to accomplish in-game was stress inducing
at times, and a clear unwanted symptom of BPS. Fallout 4 is another title I binged until I had finished. I played Fallout 4 and only Fallout 4 until I had done all named side quests and seen the
game’s ending from all factions’ perspective. And I did just that. The
downside, however, is now that I’ve officially ‘completed’ the game I feel no
urge to go back. Fallout 4 is huge
and diverse and interesting, with plenty more for me still to do, but because
I’ve ‘completed’ it I imagine I will not be going back any time soon. BPS can
also affect games without clear-cut endpoints, too. Take Spelunky and Nuclear Throne
for example. It was hard for me to stop playing these games, even after 100+
and 60+ hours respectively. While the main reason was that I was still enjoying
these titles, it also lingered in the back of my mind that I hadn’t mastered them
yet. A small part of the reason I kept playing was because I wanted to gain a more nuanced understanding of their language; I wanted to be an expert. It is also the reason I figure I’ll never
stop playing Spelunky or Nuclear Throne. There’s always more
vocabulary to learn.
So what am
I left with? I own up to having Binge Player Syndrome, for starters. It’s
important for me to admit, and important for my audience to know. It colors the
way I play, think, and speak about games. It comes with strengths and it comes
with limitations. But hey, it’s me. What kind of player are you?
